I Love My Friends

I can't believe I'm actually writing on this from time to time. Feels nice to write what I'm feeling. It's no coincidence that my favorite bible verse is Ecclesiastes 4:9-10. Look it up. Ok..fine I'll tell you what it says. " Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their work. If one falls down, his friend can help him up.But pity the man who falls and has no one to help him up!" Let's see.....to start off, growing up, I loved having friends and making new friends, but I was never the type of person to maintain friendships. Weird huh? How could someone who loves having friends not be able to maintain them? Mostly because I have such a big mouth and I like to say things like they are. Those of you that know me well and have stuck by me through this, I love you guys! As I've gotten older, I've learned how to hold back a little. Not as much as I would like, but I am really working on that. I would like to thank Chris for letting me know when it's time to close my mouth. I've also learned how to appreciate my friends more. Anyway....after going through so much drama in my teenage years (girls love drama), I decided, I didn't want that in my life anymore. I would much rather have only a few people I can call my close friends instead of trying to make the whole world my friend. Don't get me wrong, it's great to have friends, the more the merrier, but because I'm such an emotional person, I prefer to avoid getting hurt. Yes, I have trust issues when it comes to friendships. And...it really hurts me when someone was calling themselves my friend 2 weeks ago, but today they won't even say hello. The worse part is trying to figure out why. A lot of people don't actually have the guts to come up to you and tell you what you did wrong. If you're reading this, and you consider yourself my friend...please tell me if I've done anything to upset you or hurt you. Don't just stop talking to me. I want to know. That's how relationships grow. You say things...and you say them with love. That is one thing I definitely have to learn. I have so many things to work on. I know. But mostly when it comes to relationships with people, here's what I want to be able to accomplish: 1. Forgiveness. I have a really hard time forgiving people who have hurt me in the past. I want to be able to let go and just move on. 2. Love. I want to be able to show love to EVERYBODY. It's one thing to think you love someone, one thing to say you love someone, and it's a totally different thing to actually show it to someone. Even when someone has hurt me, or someone just doesn't talk to me, I want to be able to show love and compassion towards that person. 3. Silence. I want to be able to say things only when it's appropriate to say them and I want to able to say them the right way. If I can't say it the way it's supposed to be said, then I need to stay silent. So those are 3 things I want to work on. I really want to take this blog and use it to let some of you know that I love you guys and I really appreciate you. If I leave you out, don't get offended. Just think of it as a way to start working on our friendship. Starting with....of course, God! #1 in my life because He is the only one who has never and will never let me down. Next...Chris, I love you! You've been my best friend since before we started dating. My sister and brother...Marien and Danny...I know I don't say it enough...but I love you siblings. Naty and Bryan. I love you guys and appreciate you letting me vent with you sometimes. You just sit there and take it. :) Yesenia. Really appreciate your friendship. Don't forget I got all 10 questions right at your Bridal Shower. Leo and Itch. Yes....believe it or not, your names get mentioned too. You think you're only Chris' friends, but you're mine too. Kristine...even though we had a couple of years of distance...I am really thankful to God for bringing you and Jose back into our lives. So....I love you guys. And again, if your name wasn't mentioned, don't feel bad. I'll work on mentioning it in the future. :)